to my beloved xiaofen

now please take my hand, 
and slowly close your eyes
i know in your fragile heart 
you feel the intense fright

but please trust in me, 
just hold me tight
i'll bring you out tonight
for a really magical ride

open up your heart, 
open up your soul
let me enter them, 
so that you would know

lets take it gently, 
lets take it slow
lets make this story 
begin to unfold

how many times, 
have u been hurt so bad
well, how many times, 
that you felt so sad

i know u needed someone
who'd take ur hand
who'd bring u out
for good times that he planned

would u let me have that honour
of being that special guy
to make use of everything
and each lil bit of time

proving myself worthy
of being a knight so proud
to drive away ur sorrows
to make dreams turn out

i know its hard to accept
but im willing to give it a try
if only you're willing,
i'll love u till the end of time

Been busy with dance lately, somehow, i still realise my passion for dance is still burning very strongly, i admit there was once a time where i slacked and meddle with my own stuffs, and i really neglected it. Like how brother kenny talked to us, it hit me very strongly, i dance not for fame, is because i love dance, and i wanna shine for the Lord. I dream of myself dancing on stage not because of the applause downstage, the only thing i hear is ONE person clapping and smiling down on me.

Sessioning with FTC and Joe was rad! i didnt realise i could learn alot of things at esplanade, definitely more then practising alone. Bboy culture is friendly, caring and sharing. I still realise i LOVE bboy alot, only that i've been lazy and i couldnt blame anyone else except for me. Heh, just one day, i learn footwork-coindrop, new footwork style, airchair variation, elbow side freeze. These are the things i NEVER even bother to TRY before. Haha, just realised i can do all these stuffs. OH YA, and thanks to joe, i know whats my problem with my Swipe. Now i can do them properly. :)

I have the determination to improve, watch me guys :) anticipate. I shall one day shine on stage. 

For now, i dont wanna dance to make money, but i wanna make money to dance. :)

dunno why, frustration is welling up inside me.

randomly get pissed over anything. why?

i feel like killing someone and go to jail.

i mean, serious. o_O

life has gone so they pass us by
each time we tried to hold on tight
you'll never know there's anyday
our life will cross through time

if anything is gonna make you smile
tell me what must i do
i'll bring to any faraway,
i'll bring you to the zoo

i'll take your hand and run with me
to another faraway place
make you take your mind of everything
and run through life's tough race

would you wanna see the view
rotating the circle of life
taking a ride through the timespace drive
you'll let your heart decide

i've tried many a times
well, thats how hard i tried
but its gonna be all that worthwhile
if you're nvr gonna cry

i wanna see that smile
on that beautiful face once more
so even if it cost my life
i'll still walk you thru the door

i dont need you to notice me
i dont need you to see
i just need you to hold on tight
and just, smile at me

i seen some love quotes that attracted me, so i shall share with everyone.




1) If a star falls down from the sky each time i think of you, the sky would be empty by now.

2) Love isn't all hugs and kisses, It's that look in your eyes before our lips touch.

3) How come we always know when love ends, but we never seem to know when it starts.

4) Why do i have to climb a thousand moutains to get you, but all you need to do is just to smile?

5) Missing you isn't the hardest part... knowing i ONCE had you was what breaks my heart.



and some funny ones

1) I can't live without you, but i don't know what to do with you.

2) I married Miss. Right, but i did'nt know her first name was "Always".

i dedicate this poem
to someone i deem so dear
who wipe my mess when im lazy
whom led my life so clear

i love the way she scolds me
i love the way she kiss
i love the way her tender care
would tell me thats all it is

maybe one day she'll leave
to another place abound
but nevertheless, i love her
thats the treasure i've found

once she said to me
eddie, dont be sad
in my heart i always felt
that she's holdin on my back

everything i do
and every mess i've made
i tend to forget her
and whatever she says

who would wait for me
deep in the middle of the night
no one else but my precious
someone in my life

thanks for being there
even though i've been bad
thanks for being there
even though you're sad

thanks for taking care
when times i feel so sick
thanks for every single thing
that you have done for me

everybody asked me
what kind of wife i'd find
"someone like my MOM,
the one that's so define"

if i turn to take a look
or even just to take a peek
there are many options
but none that i seek

it had always been black
not colours with white
with you entering it
gives colour to my life

i've never dreamt so well
that i could find that special you
but never did i realise
i would lose that too

you gave my everything i need
but now im lost, lost forever
i'm willing to give up anything
answers me, never ever

i know once i said
i cant live without you
now i live on
for the promise still true

i've written countless poems
with inspirations to see
but this time with these
is painful feelings

how is it now that
i can tell you i love you
what can i do
the love that we had was solitude

enough crying weeping
i know i have to stay strong
but this was never enough
to show that i love you that long

take all the smiles
that we had thru the years
let me hold the worries..

i'll take the tears

When I wish upon
a falling star
I wish to be
where you are,

Lying there
next to you,
Praying that
your love is true.

For so long I've
waited for the night
Where you'd hold me close
and hold me tight.

I close my eyes
and I can see
You're my real,
true destiny.

By this time
I'm flying high,
But soon
it will all have to die.

I have to come back
to reality.
And see that
that could never be.

For this world
is just a fake.
For you my heart
will always ache

Everytime I look at you,
my heart begins to melt.
Everytime I think of you,
I wish you knew how I felt.

Your beautiful smile
brings a tear to my eye.
The sound of your gentle voice
makes me want to cry.

I can imagine your kiss,
your warm embrace.
I can imagine your hands
caressing my face.

It feels so great,
so real it seems.
I wish you were here,
and not only in my dreams

now it all
proven to me
that love with you
wasnt a reality

clock struck twelve
hands slipped down
you left the hall
without turning around

i believe you say
you'll never walk away
but in the end
the fact that you never stayed

nights spent hugging
singing to make you sleep
jellybeans and mentos
were the things u like to eat

"troubled mind over sleepless nights"
were once my trademark sign
eventually they do come true
in another way of time

its the first time i see
myself crying out so sad
its also the first time i knew
that tears, they taste so bad

1 corinthians 7:7
"to each has a gift of his or her own"
you were a really a gift
but to another unknown

the things i've done
i've waited and tried
you deemed this freedom
which i had never denied

i know its too late to apologise
for the chain i tied to you
and finally
you manage to break it loose

i've done many wrongdoings
in a way or another
but simply put it this way
that we had loved each other

now each time i see
the way you look into his eyes
it reminds me of mine
but this time, heartbreaks comes behind

the smile you gave away
was once for me
but now the words you say
were bitter yet so sweet

we both had changed
we both had paths
they interlink with each other
yet the road turned tough

you gave it up in the end
with love you gave him kiss
now i can only see
is your hand, holding only his..

how will the road end
how will the birds fly
how will the trees stand
without their love of their life

how will i sing
how will i dance
how will i ever be
with this heartbreak to withstand

how will i talk
how will i survive
how will i see the road
with those tears in my eyes

how will i ever know
how will i ever pray
how will i ever hope
with these memories to erase

how far can i run
how far can i stall
how far can i walk
when i forgot how to crawl

these few stanzas mean
how much u mean to me
but now it all seems
past fond memories

i bet if you'd seen this
you wouldnt even be
touched by my actions
or how depress i've been

so thus i keep those loving
pictures which i've seen
to remind myself
how much you mean to me.

goodbye, my lost love